Every song starts as a prayer, a confession, or a battle cry. These are my lyrics — written from my own story, from the battle through the surrender and into freedom.
Don't Spill the Tea / Judas Just Like Me
From the album Kaleidoscope Journey
You said to me The party has to end So don't pretend to be set free It's not that I find excuses to ask why I try to hide Unwanted attractions I still have towards a guy Bruised and broken identity inside I cry Please care for me Stop pushing me away Delivered I say Yet you still think that I'm gay Lonely one I stay You let me be Even if I still give in To the bondage of pornography The temptation that I feel within Causes you to grin But I know I will still win Because God has forgiven The struggle with my flesh and sin While rejected by the feminine Testosterone still winks at me This battle is real Yet you still let go of me How I feel now Is lost at sea Careful not to spill the tea As you look down at me Call me what you want You are a troubled soul and a Judas Just Like Me Difference is I won't stay that way Because my heart desires to turn away Even if I struggle every single day To not be gay I know who I choose to follow The Truth, the Life, and the Way In the arms of Jesus I will stay Even if I struggle His light will guide the way This I pray....
You said to me The party has to end So don't pretend to be set free It's not that I find excuses to ask why I try to hide Unwanted attractions I still have towards a guy Bruised and broken identity inside I cry Please care for me Stop pushing me away Delivered I say Yet you still think that I'm gay Lonely one I stay You let me be Even if I still give in To the bondage of pornography The temptation that I feel within Causes you to grin But I know I will still win Because God has forgiven The struggle with my flesh and sin While rejected by the feminine Testosterone still winks at me This battle is real Yet you still let go of me How I feel now Is lost at sea Careful not to spill the tea As you look down at me Call me what you want You are a troubled soul and a Judas Just Like Me Difference is I won't stay that way Because my heart desires to turn away Even if I struggle every single day To not be gay I know who I choose to follow The Truth, the Life, and the Way In the arms of Jesus I will stay Even if I struggle His light will guide the way This I pray....
Who's Broad Stripe's and Bright Stars
From the album Kaleidoscope Journey 2.0
Oh, how beautiful were her spacious skies? Lady liberty now fallen from glory Rusted and beat down She has lost her innocence and ability to shine Once beaming for all to see Purple mountains hardly majesty have faded to gray, and have begun to crumble into the sea Once a proud country stood together united Now divide we fall one by one No longer standing tall, ice attacks, and mass gang war is in store As more of Venezuelans kick down or patriotic door Retreating from a dictating man's evil now captured abandoned shore Representing nothing to hope for but dead land If oil is supposed to make one rich Why does it divide us and bleed such evil coursing through our veins? God warned us, It is the root of all evil Yet, we still choose to turn a blind eye, and ear away Now we must prepare to pay the price of nothing nice Speaking of ice, let's be clear how real the drug epidemic is destroying us here From California, to Florida And from the Rocky Mountains to the monument fountain in DC Blues, booze, and shards are wreaking havoc and raping the light out of you and me Even if you don't use You must still choose to lose your ability to control the zombies who stroll late at night Such a bitter pill to swallow No King rallies seize the day Yet we all have a role and responsibility to pay to do our part Will we show hate or love? Pray and choose wisely to follow freedom leading from the Holy Spirit dove to blanket our land with comfort and love In God we trust, not Trump or lust Now tally the ballots and even the score Please God send peace to calm this boiling war that's bursting at the seams and ready to destroy us once more Religion causing division...repent Pride flags, and spirit of gender confusion...repent Human traffickers, and social hackers...repent Pedophiles, and those who burn stolen tax files...repent Land of the free? No Home of the brave? Sadly, not so much anymore As I pick up my iPhone, I ask ChatGPT if there is hope for you and me? Siri replies no!
Grindr Haze
From the album Battlefields & Butterflies
High all the time we get high all the time Ten and two when we fuck And smoke with you we blow another cloud and spend many days in a Grindr haze How can you pretend we never met when I let you inside and trusted you with the bowl we spin? What a sinful thought When you give it all you got Falling back into the world's formation Transformation slowly fades away Once bringing freedom Speed bump or speed ball? Either way I was destined to fall touch my body tender and throw me on the floor Gag me with your dick I beg Please give me more High all the time we get high all the time Nirvana we explore High all the time We get high all the time shards and crystals galore What a sinful thought When you give it all you got Falling back into the world's formation Transformation slowly fades away Once bringing freedom Speed bump or speed ball? Either way I was destined to fall Vanilla baby you ask? no the deviant side I like to show Glide and flow Watching how big Your dick can grow Public sex? yes please let's go! High all the time we get high all the time Spun.. spun.. spun High all the time we get high all the time having no responsibility Is so much fun, fun, fun! Once bringing freedom Speed bump or speed ball? Either way I was destined to fall Now jerk me hard Ready to cum Getting spun with you Is fun fun fun!
Finally Found
From the album Battlefields & Butterflies 2
When I'm looking for a man to bring me an ounce of hope You let me down again so I say fuck it as I run back to dope Daddy don't you see your love has never met me Why does she get to be in your world I might never see? Because of who you are I use to run and hide Because of who you are I built up so much pride Because of who you are I pushed love for myself aside Just blowing in the wind I feel so lost inside There once was a man named Skip My heart he loved to rip My hopeful life I once lost grip I sip the pain away caused by Skip Then there was Jay He always had something hurtful to say We used and medicated our lives away Sadly Jay is no longer with us today Let me tell you about Harry The man I vowed to marry His last name I would carry Until the abuse became too scary Because of who you are I use to run and hide Because of who you are I built up so much pride Because of who you are I pushed love for myself aside Just blowing in the wind I felt so lost inside Then one day I met a man who longed to show me love I tried to run away but He sent a Holy Dove Afraid to love again I surrender My walls came crashing down And now I can't imagine my life without Him around Because of who You are I no longer have to hide Because of who You are I let go of all the pride Because of who You are I found love for myself inside No longer blowing in the wind I am grateful for this ride Not every man is worthy of the love poured out by me But still I choose to forgive because You have forgiven me I can finally breathe My inventory released into the world I am free!
Identify Band-Aids
From the album Love's Journey 2 Surrender
As I tremble towards surrender Desperate for healing I find grace I could never earn I let go of the biggest stumbling block myself More than anything I need Your love to cover my scars Is it true that even I can be forgiven? A whisper beyond the mirror Says 'Look at the beauty of what I've created.' Desperate for acceptance I find mercy in my weakness Unveiling our wounds Every issue comes from our heart so we need to guard it! We spent all of our childhood putting bandaids on our wounds so we never had the chance to heal it.. Identify bandaids Remove bandaids Bring your broken pieces to Jesus! Is it true that even I can become whole? Memories of thunderclouds have finally dissipated Brighter days are surely ahead More than anything I need Your strength to keep moving forward no matter how hard things might get Is it true that even I can find purpose to live a prosperous life? Unveiling our wounds Every issue comes from our heart so we need to guard it! We spent all of our childhood putting bandaids on our wounds so we never had the chance to heal it.. Identify bandaids Remove bandaids Bring your broken pieces to Jesus! I need Your light to see the cloudless Sun Is it true I too am guarded by angels? Wanting to open my heart to trust again Spoken words have fallen flat Will it be different this time if I believe? I need Your guidance to discern reality Unveiling our wounds Every issue comes from our heart so we need to guard it! We spent all of our childhood putting bandaids on our wounds so we never had the chance to heal it.. Identify bandaids Remove bandaids Bring your broken pieces to Jesus! Can I thrive in unknown waters? I need You to place in me Your desires Is it true that You seek to entrust with something new? No longer chasing fantasies, bad behaviors, and toxic tendencies This new fire burns brighter than ever before I need Your Spirit to lead me now more than ever Unveiling our wounds Every issue comes from our heart so we need to guard it! We spent all of our childhood putting bandaids on our wounds so we never had the chance to heal it.. Identify bandaids Remove bandaids Bring your broken pieces to Jesus! It's a new day As I hold onto Your promises Yes it is true I am renewed from the former things that use to sting Dead to desperation I finally unpack resentful baggage that once weighed me down A new me Free as can be So begins Love's Journey to Surrender Unveiling our wounds Every issue comes from our heart so we need to guard it! We spent all of our childhood putting bandaids on our wounds so we never had the chance to heal it.. Identify bandaids Remove bandaids Bring your broken pieces to Jesus! As I tremble towards surrender Desperate for healing I find grace I could never earn I let go of the biggest stumbling block myself
Freakshow
From the album Freakshow
I don't hallucinate reality on the tainted mushrooms You would grow more like tragedy from A supposed productive and loving man You promised to show when the sun doesn't shine your memory seems to light up every dark crevice that dims this trampled heart that still skips a beat at the mention of your name when the world spotlights my shame It is your name that brings me back to life why was I the vulnerable star of your exposed and cruel freak show? I'm not your wild mad science project or guinea pig in fact you're the pig that lusted after my nice dick that's so big when the sun doesn't shine your memory seems to light up every dark crevice that dims this trampled heart that still skips a beat at the mention of your name when the world spotlights my shame It is your name that brings me back to life now catch a grenade in your mouth and prepare for the explosion Karma and I intend to bring your way you will soon pay everyday for drowning my hopes when the sun doesn't shine your memory seems to light up every dark crevice that dims this trampled heart that still skips a beat at the mention of your name when the world spotlights my shame It is your name that brings me back to life I'm melancholy while doped up on the crystal candy and G you had especially made for me I digress and confess my hate for you is true to think I wasted a Jail phone call on you Thinking you would help me get through and be with you when the sun doesn't shine your memory seems to light up every dark crevice that dims this trampled heart that still skips a beat at the mention of your name when the world spotlights my shame It is your name that brings me back to life Fame won't love me like you did I can publish many books Even climb Amazon charts To number one Yet Nothing compares to you making me feel the way you do you are the key that unlocks every door that I closed and froze shut careful not to let a single soul Stroll through I locked them because of you no longer a slave to you I rise as shot caller!